Idols...
People we look up to, admire.. I think we all wanted, once at least, to be like someone or we felt deep respect for that person.
But not me... I never had idols.
I never saw a person to who I could say that I truly look up to, that they've done something so unusually remarkable in my eyes that I would call them "my idol". I just never thought there was such a person.
I know there are scientists, genius, remarkable minds in the world, but they never got my interest.
At least not like this person I've recently had the luck to meet. :D
And I was sure that there is no justice in the world.
I always had biiig problems with lies.. but I already spoke about this. I hate lies and hypocrites.
But until now, besides my few true friends, everyone was lying, speaking behind my back.
We live in a very hypocritical, self-righteous world. Everybody lies..so I thought I could be truly honest with my close friends and family, that the rest of the world won't understand me.
Then somehow I've got a book in my hands, wrote by a famous psychiatrist.
He seemed honest, he even has a little harsh method of getting people back on their feet, he deals with drug addicts as well, but somehow his way of thinking really caught my attention.
Anyhow.. by some kind of strange miracle or what not.. I heard he was coming to my little city to do a show about intimacy in couples, honesty in the world.
And of course I was thrilled and anxious to see in reality what he has to say, what kind of people will be there, who believe in what I believe: that you can still live honestly and happy. That if you take true responsibility for your life and actions, which takes up a lot of suffering and hard work, it's worth it in the end.
His show was the best I've been at. Finally... one man who stands up in a fake world and talks about honesty, truth, who won't hide the truth just cause it would be easier.
So justice does exist, in a way.. at least truth does. Cause all the people there were seeking for the truth, all of them would rather listen to the truth, than to shut up, be lazy and don't want a better life.
So basically what this doctor says is, that people usually repress their feelings, emotions. For example when we don't tell a person if we like them or not. Or in a relationship, if you don't like something, but you'd rather shut up, cause you don't want to fight or you're afraid of what the other will think of you, if you say it...these feelings will get repressed, and what you don't say out loud causes stress in your life, and stress causes diseases. And there are soo many sick people in the world.
This doesn't mean to fight all the time! This means that both of you talk about your emotions and learn to respect what the other person has to say.
No one lives a rationally and emotionally balanced life, because they hide their true feelings.
And here comes the "pain" part.. sometimes when we say out loud what we feel or think, it can sound messy. This is why people lie...it's so much more easier.
So to put in practice what the doctor said, in my own life, I was almost sure that during the last two years of my life I started to get on the right track, become the person who I wanted to be and be proud of the things I've done. Then I found out that I was, but my feelings were not in place. So I had to say out loud everything I had repressed.
I faced my fears! And that's the hardest part: to deal with the pain. I thought that it will be much easier right away.
And another year had to pass to be able to say that I can accept my feelings and who I am.
I'm learning to grow up emotionally, I'm still facing my fears! :)
And this is missing from schools. We can learn so much, so many good jobs.. people do learn a lot and they become important people..rationally! But no one teaches you how to say what you feel, when you like someone, you either don't even try cause "I'll get hurt in the end, so might as well just be friends" or you try but you are so selfish to have everything for yourself, that you don't care for your partner.
Everybody is selfish, this is human nature, but when you don't give what you want to get, why do you expect to get it anyway??
This doctor is really great, I really can look up to him, respect him. But he can't save the world from all the people who like being in their own mess and denied feelings.
But I can say that living a life where I know what I want, giving all that I am able to, doing my best when I want to achieve something, really changed my life and made it very happy.
How many of you can say that you live a happy life with what you've got so far??
I hope that more and more people with time! :)
In life the simple things are the best, and a happy life has just a little secret: to give what you would like to get! & be open minded a bit too! :D